In Which I Write Essays Compulsively

Hello again everybody!
It's been another few weeks since I've last written - I've literally been so busy with A levels I don't even know where to begin! However, I am making great progress with guyImetatparty! He's been having a lot of difficulties with trust but last Friday he had a dream about me - and I'm the first person he's let into his dreams for months. He also called me special 'n stuff, which was amazing and really touched me :') I proceeded to fall over backwards and stare at my ceiling, making a very strange noise. I'm glad I'm persevering with him. I genuinely want to help him, and it feels like maybe, just maybe, I might be doing that, plus I like him a lot. We haven't met up in almost 9 weeks, granted, but I'm sure we'll find the time again soon.

My insomnia is still here, but I don't really see a problem with it to be honest. I don't feel like I need the sleep during the week, and I have Tues + Wed afternoons off so I can sleep then if I want to - plus I often sleep for like 12 hours at the weekend so I'm not complaining :P And I get to have really good conversations with guyImetatparty at the same time :) Sometimes I worry if I'm being annoying. I'm really, really good at convincing myself that nobody likes me xD but I'm hoping he'll say something if I get too annoying.

I've been relapsing with depression a little bit too. Nothing major - just stress about A levels. I've been writing essays and doing coursework in every single one of my subjects! And one of my friends, who I walk to college with every day, may have to retake her first year already and it's only February, which is somewhat terrifying. The teachers are telling us to start revising now, when I don't really see the point to be honest. We have a whole five months until our exams, and if I start now I know I'll be bored rigid by the time I get to May and June. I'll probably start to do something after half term though :) not serious revision, but juts recapping and finding a place for it in my head.My memory problems are worsening which doesn't help, but I blame the depression/lack of sleep/stress about college more than anything. But yesterday, I felt like I was waking up a little for the first time in terms of depression. I've been kind of closing myself off from everyone in the last few weeks, but yesterday I felt a little more open than I have before. So I have hope :)

We have 2 weeks 'till half term. Already started to make plans for our jaunts which is nice. It seems like I'll be spending most of it in a seaside town nearby, which I can't complain about because I love it there.

Anyway, I'm going to go and start looking at universities as my friends are already applying and booking open days!! Aaah!

Triple English

I totally forgot to write yesterday - which is justifiable seeing as I didn't actually get in until half eleven last night, and then I had to go in to college to double check that I could drop Pre-U. Yesterday was pretty fun - we spent most of second period performing a quiet medley of loads of random songs, most of which I didn't know because they were from the 60s and 70s and stuff, but it was still fun. I have a friend who can do a really good Tenacious D impression which is pretty awesome :') normally Thursday is pizza day, but it was pouring with rain (again) and none of us wanted to go out so we stayed in.

I had triple English after this. Triple English I tell you. I bet you can't think of anything worse haha :P I had an hour of Language and then two hours of Literature, with 40 minutes of a breaktime in between. It wasn't too bad though - in Language all we really did was analyse a film review, but Literature was much harder work. By the end of the day I was exhausted, but pottered off to the train station and found my way into town to meet up with my friends from outside college. I love these guys so much - they're the handful of friends I have who I can totally and 100% be myself around. Like, I can say anything and they won't mind at all, it's awesome :) We saw Indiana Jones: Raiders of the Lost Ark in IMAX, and then went to Pizza Hut. I'd never seen ROTLA before, and it wasn't completely my thing, but it was still really cool. The service at Pizza Hut was absolutely terrible though - the waiter kept forgetting about us. We actually had to go up and directly ask for cutlery when everybody else around us was given some, we also had to ask if we could pay the bill and if we could have a card machine, too :/ They wouldn't even let my friend get a discount when she works at the Pizza Hut takeaway branch just across the road. But the food was pretty good :)

So this morning, I blearily-eyed forced myself onto a bus at 8:30 in the morning and then off again once we got to college, before putting my points across to a supervisor about why I wanted to drop Pre-U. She first of all suggested that I should drop Psychology and do Lit, Lang, French and Pre-U, but that didn't seem to make much sense to me, doing 3 A-levels and then an extended diploma thing. I managed to convince her to let me drop Pre-U though, and she graciously accepted my decision. I'm just worried about the workload, 'tis all. I'd rather get my A-levels than worry about learning skills for uni now - and it's more or less essay writing and presentations, which isn't the main focus of Modern Languages, which is my strength. Afterwards I got back onto another bus, and well, here I am.

I'm meeting up with college friends in an hour. No idea what we're doing, but I'll probably write a post later on :D
Peace!
Rach

And thus it begins.

I've been sitting on the idea for starting a blog on my experiences with A levels for a while, although it's only now that I've actually sat down at my computer and logged onto Blogger.

I've done it. I've actually started a Blog.

Well, to be fair, I did blog my experiences of Year 11 for a while last year, but I sort of... forgot... to tell the truth. I also started writing a book at the same time, and there's only so many hours a day one can spend typing away on a computer. This time, however, I vow to keep my promise. As well as all those other promises to do my homework when I say I'm going to, instead of logging onto Tumblr and spending the night wallowing in a pit of feels and everything else. I figured I'd have a go though.

So, I guess we should start with the basics. If you haven't read the large text at the top of this blog, my name is Rach. I'm currently 16 years old, and I'm in Year 12. I started the joy that can be known as A levels approximately two weeks ago, and I'm studying English Literature, English Language, French, Psychology and Cambridge Pre-U: Global Perspectives at my local college. I used to go to a private school, and I absolutely detested everything about it - from the teaching, to the pupils, and especially the work ethic and ethos of the school. For my GCSEs I got 4A*s, 4As and 2Bs in English Literature, English Language, French, Maths, Biology, Chemistry, Physics, Music, Drama and History. I got 100% in both Lit and French. 

My hobbies include reading, writing, making YouTube videos, meeting up and talking with my friends, playing the guitar (I'm in a rock band with some friends), running, wandering round and exploring places and listening to music. 

I'm 50% introverted, 50% extroverted. Which is a total pain. It basically means that I don't really like to be around people much, but I hate being by myself at the same time. But also, it means that I can have fun both by myself and with other people, it just depends on my mood. 

I absolutely love the Avengers, Doctor Who, Sherlock and all those other nerdy things I'm sure you're sick to death of if you use Tumblr. I spend most of my time on the internet or playing Xbox with my friends. 

I have no idea what I want to be when I'm older: I change my mind every five minutes. Despite the fact that I got pretty good results for GCSE and I'm expected to go to a Russell Group university, I've never been that keen on doing something especially academic. I'm probably going to do either Modern Languages, English, Psychology or Creative Writing at University though.

So yeah, that's just some information about me. The official blogging will start tomorrow, so I hope whoever reads this (if anybody) will stick around and enjoy my other entries!!

Rach