In Which I Write Essays Compulsively

Hello again everybody!
It's been another few weeks since I've last written - I've literally been so busy with A levels I don't even know where to begin! However, I am making great progress with guyImetatparty! He's been having a lot of difficulties with trust but last Friday he had a dream about me - and I'm the first person he's let into his dreams for months. He also called me special 'n stuff, which was amazing and really touched me :') I proceeded to fall over backwards and stare at my ceiling, making a very strange noise. I'm glad I'm persevering with him. I genuinely want to help him, and it feels like maybe, just maybe, I might be doing that, plus I like him a lot. We haven't met up in almost 9 weeks, granted, but I'm sure we'll find the time again soon.

My insomnia is still here, but I don't really see a problem with it to be honest. I don't feel like I need the sleep during the week, and I have Tues + Wed afternoons off so I can sleep then if I want to - plus I often sleep for like 12 hours at the weekend so I'm not complaining :P And I get to have really good conversations with guyImetatparty at the same time :) Sometimes I worry if I'm being annoying. I'm really, really good at convincing myself that nobody likes me xD but I'm hoping he'll say something if I get too annoying.

I've been relapsing with depression a little bit too. Nothing major - just stress about A levels. I've been writing essays and doing coursework in every single one of my subjects! And one of my friends, who I walk to college with every day, may have to retake her first year already and it's only February, which is somewhat terrifying. The teachers are telling us to start revising now, when I don't really see the point to be honest. We have a whole five months until our exams, and if I start now I know I'll be bored rigid by the time I get to May and June. I'll probably start to do something after half term though :) not serious revision, but juts recapping and finding a place for it in my head.My memory problems are worsening which doesn't help, but I blame the depression/lack of sleep/stress about college more than anything. But yesterday, I felt like I was waking up a little for the first time in terms of depression. I've been kind of closing myself off from everyone in the last few weeks, but yesterday I felt a little more open than I have before. So I have hope :)

We have 2 weeks 'till half term. Already started to make plans for our jaunts which is nice. It seems like I'll be spending most of it in a seaside town nearby, which I can't complain about because I love it there.

Anyway, I'm going to go and start looking at universities as my friends are already applying and booking open days!! Aaah!

In which I fail to think of a witty title

I'm so tired. So, so tired. School is so difficult already and we're only a week in! I haven't written in a while so this post is probably gonna be pretty long but oh well. I have twenty minutes to do it in before I have to plunge myself into Thursday's excitement so here goes...

Retakes
For some reason a lot of people in my set did quite badly in our core science modules (we're using the AQA exam board for this). These are my results:
These are my results:
B1a - B - 38 UMS points
B1b - A - 40 UMS points
C1a - B - 36 UMS points
C1b - A - 42 UMS points
P1a - B - 39 UMS points
P1b - A* - 47 UMS points

A couple of days ago my Biology and Chemistry teachers asked me if I wanted to retake the 1a papers. I said no to both of them because I'm quite content with my Bs and I think they're good enough. When I said this to my Biology teacher he said, "They're not good enough... for you." I told him I'd retake the 1a paper though, I guess it's worth a shot. I'm not going to retake the Chemistry 1a though. We have them at the same time as our mocks in November and there's only so much you can revise for at once. Plus I have the school play, which I'll talk about now.

School play
I auditioned for the school play for a couple of our friends (as GCSE Drama students, it's strongly advised that we do it) and I thought it went really well. Instead, us Year 11s all got the part of pubgoers. In fairness I suppose it's a good thing, as it gives us less to worry about when it comes to doing homework and revising for mocks. But I did really want a good part seeing as it's my final year there. Ah well, you can't have everything that you want.

French oral
I have a French oral examination coming up in October, and I'm terrified. I suck at talking in French - I can read and write it fine, but I literally CANNOT think on my feet like that and come out with a load of good vocab. We had a practise a couple days ago which went... interestingly to say the least, but I definitely wasn't the worst in the class so I guess that's one good thing.

I actually think I'm one of the only people in the year who is actually keeping up with their homework. Left and right there's people doing it before class or before school has even started, doing it in the lessons, trying to make up witty excuses for why they haven't done it... And I probably do a lot more extra stuff than they do. My week looks like this:
Monday - French media club/Rehearsal
Tuesday - Rehearsal/free
Wednesday - French tutoring
Thursday - Band practice
Friday - Free

I guess I'm just really self-motivated.

D of E soon, aaahhh! We started planning our routes yesterday, it looks like it could be quite difficult and complicated, but hopefully we'll manage. Our practice expedition was a total disaster, so I really hope that it's easier this time.

I finished this post in ten minutes. Boo yah.